Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Little Things

Well, for all of you blog 'stalkers' out there. I'm back and better as ever! A lot has happened since my last blog site was published! Tyler is JUST ABOUT 10 months old now. That boy keeps me smiling! He just got his first 2 'teefers', and he shows them off like it's a shiny new car! So cute! He is TRYING to crawl more, but we are still at maybe one or two crawls, then he cries for mommy to come pick him up :) ...and I do! Going through a divorce, which -- I couldn't be happier about! HAHA...best decision I have made in the past 5 1/2 years! I realized last week how hard it is going to be. (Yes, just last week...it hit me!) After a very emotional/stressful week, something just hit me like a ton of bricks - I CAN do this, my mom did this, and I am strong enough to deal with this. Then I realized, after many many many tears and sleepless nights, this is just one of those 'little things' that help you reach your goal in the end. I also realized the past 5 1/2 years - has been nothing but a lesson. A lesson about strength, encouragement, faith in friends and family, happiness, LOVE, and most of all will power. Yes, it's true...the things that don't kill us, makes us stronger. LITERALLY. I think there are far worse things in the world going on, than my 'little things'. I mean, really....I am the winner in all of this, I came out on top - with an amazing little boy that brings tears to my eyes every time I see that beautiful smile, with a family that has stuck by me through some pretty horrible days, my friends that kept me 'motivated' and kept me grounded, God - without all of the prayers and strength, who knows where I would be. So, I have a reason to say I'm blessed and to keep on 'truckin'....because it's what I do :)
Also, one of the 'little' things that I absolutely enjoy....FALL/WINTER. Today has been heaven to me...a chill outside with a warm heater at my feet...just waiting for the leaves to change. I have waited 4 1/2 years to be able to watch 'FALL' and it's only THE BEGINNING!!! I love new beginnings....A FRESH START.