Happy Valentines Day!

I know, I know...it's late. So what...! Well, for those of you that haven't heard me complaining about my horrible week last week...guess what!? Yep...last week was horrible. I moved from my bed to the couch, very little...went to pee, very little....ate food, yeah, not so much. Lost 3 lbs...yes! Went to the doctor last Wednesday because I thought I was DYING. I NEVER go to the doctor, unless yes...I'm dying. I don't take medicine, unless...yes, I'm dying. I hate it all! So, after 4 baths on Wednesday morning, from about 1 am to 5 am...I contemplated whether or not to go to the doctor...I laid in my nice, sweaty bed for a couple of hours, bawling my eyes out, wanting my mommy, DYING. So, who to call at 6 am?? My sweet, loving, caring, tell me crap I don't want to hear, but the truth...my brother! Yep, called him crying at 6am. Threatening a visit to the hospital because I was DYING.

OUR CONVO GOES LIKE THIS:
Adam: "Loni...are you really dying or are you just saying that?"
Me: ::sniff::sniff::groggy voice::"I don't know, Adam....I don't know what dying feels like, but if this is anything like it, I would much rather be in the hospital where people can revive me, because I feel like I'm dying."
Adam: "Loni, go to the doctor, don't deal with the deductible, it's not worth it. I don't think you're dying..."
Me: "But I don't even have the energy to call the insurance company to find out what doctor in the area takes the insurance"
Adam: "Ok, call them, call me back and let me know what they say"..
Me: ::sniff::sniff::groggy voice:: "Ohhhhhhk"

Don't you just love him? Boy, am I glad I listened...up until I was seen, I was still wishing I had gone to the hospital, because while sitting in the waiting room, watching people laugh, kids playing, me wanting to bang my head against the wall...I would have much rather been curled up in a hospital bed, with a warm blanket, crying about dying, well...to anyone that would listen :) But once I saw the doctor and he explained that it was just a virus, nothing they could do...I was certainly glad I listened to BIG brother and went to the doctor and skipped out on a $150 co-pay. Don't you just love him!??! Haha!

By the way, I'm feeling TONS better, just a little cough, (Mark at work, calls it hacking...but whatever..at least I'm not dying anymore!...Deal with it!) But I finally was able to come back to work on Friday, I was going to come in early too...I was sooooo excited to be feeling better and get back to work...got Ty strapped in the car seat, went to start it...DEAD. Apparently, my car died in the process of me dying...ha! So, good thing I was going to leave early, because I was only 30 minutes late....had to get jumped off...but it's good as new! I got to work and Mark decided to give me crap about needing a man at home, because not only can I not drive in the snow, or need help carrying groceries up.... I need A MAN to come help me jump my car off....oh please :) So, needless to say, it was an interesting week, the guys were glad to have me back at work to harass (what do they do without me?!?) and I am feeling TONS better. ANNNND I'm not dying. Adam is going to make a great doctor :)

Rewind to Valentine's Day weekend...umm...I got to see my dad, whom I haven't seen in over 6 months!!! I was stoked! I actually had a "date" but not really a date, for Valentines. My best buddy, Brock, decided to take me out to dinner to this little amazing Mexican restaurant in Knoxville, which, by the way, I am going back for that deep fried burrito...YUMMO! :) Then, Valentines Day, I got to spend the day with my 3 favorite men...My brother, My handsome little boy and my daddy :) All and all, a good Valentines Day...oh yeah...just a few little things I decided to treat myself with :)

Not Me! Monday

Well, I got this idea from a blog that I visit a lot...and it just shares my desire to admit some of my imperfections and reveal a few moments I'd rather forget. So, here goes!

So, I am not sitting at my desk, working on a spreadsheet, about to pull my eye sockets out, munching on a 100-calorie pack, drinking water AND a cappuccino...nope, Not me! While I was cleaning this weekend, I noticed something in the corner of my bathroom closet, a broom, that I have, still to this day, never used, because I'm too lazy and would rather vacuum up stuff, nope! Not me! I really don't enjoy working with men more, because they give me a hard time, don't have drama and laugh at my corny jokes...Nope! Not me! Absolutely, in no way, go and get Tyler out of his bed yesterday to come lay with me in mine...to cuddle, until 1 PM...Nope, Not me! No, I do not melt at the sight of this handsome face...Nope, Not me!

Overwhelmed, Me?? No Way!

Oh, for years and years I have thought about this moment. Going back to school. Man o' Man. How hard could it be!? Yeah, right. It has been 6 years since I have graduated and still have not the slightest idea of what I want to do. Boy, have I thought about it. I went from wanting to do Forensics to Design (Architecture) to Culinary (Pastry) Chef to Teacher to Engineer to Teacher to Culinary to Teacher to "Lord Jehovah, I have no idea and this is ridiculous!!" OR I could be like Adam and go to be a doctor. Go big or go home, right?? Yeah, no thanks. Yeah, I have commitment issues...marriage - ha! Car payment - man, I have just had the slight thought of forgetting to put it in park and let it roll down a hill and crash and burn, just to get rid of the payment...Um, yeah...tell me about it. Horrendous. Not only do I have the question, what am I going to do...but where am I going to find the stinking time?!? I work 40+ hours a week, I feel like I hardly see Ty as it is, and yet I'm wanting to leave straight from my hectic day, miss going home to cuddle my boy and go to school for hours. Brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. So yes, a prayer for my decision making skills. I haven't had the 'sharpest knife in the drawer' as far as that goes...so lets get it right this time :) Thanks God.

On a lighter note - Ty doesn't have to have the tubes put in his ears!!! YIPPIE SKIPPY! Wonderful news :) Prayer answered on that! He is walking all over the place now and wanting to hang on to mommy's legs everywhere she walks. That boy sneaks up behind me all of the time! He also sneaks off all of the time. I believe it was over the weekend, when I was cleaning and ran to the kitchen for a sec...(FOR A SEC)...and little nosey butt (I'll take credit) decides to play with that blue stuff in the big white bowl. Yep, you guessed it. Fishin' in the toilet bowl. GRRRRROOOOSSSSSS! I am so thankful for Bath and Body works $3 ANTI BACTERIAL soap that I stocked up on...shoo wee! Ty had a fever a couple of weeks ago and had to go on breathing treatments, he was diagnosed with RSV. It's like a cold for us, but horrible for him. Poor boy. He is feeling 100% back to normal now! Has a total of 5 teeth, that I can see. Two on top, 3 on bottom. Eats like a piglet. LOVES mexican rice, sucking water out of mommy's straw, Hooters (the restaurant!! Not the "hooters!!") and melts my heart every single day :) Let me just fill you in on our trip to Hooters on Friday. Nothing but smiles from this boy. He would eat, Hooters girl would walk by, he would completely ignore the fork in front of his face and smile the biggest smile ever. Our waitress came and sat down to take our order, Mr. Flirt decides he will laugh, grin, then look at her legs. Man, am I in trouble or what?!? At least he's going for the pretty ones...and not MEN. HALLELUJAH!! :)

Beyond excited. Filed my taxes. Awesome. I finally get to put money back, pay off my bills - ALL OF THEM!!!!!, buy myself a washer and dryer - yahooie! My little apartment doesn't really look like an apartment anymore, and I definitely think it will look way better once that furniture is paid off!!! :) So, good news on this end.

God has blessed me and my family so much and I cannot begin to express how excited I am to see what happens in the next year. I just hope I can make a decision of what I want to do the rest of my life. Oh Lord. :) Wish me luck!!!